So I'm just an ordinary teen who loves sitting in front of her computer watching YouTube videos and tweeting. So I thought of the idea of doing the about me tag on my blog, as its quite new and here it enables you to get to know me better! So here I go!
Do you have a middle name?
Yes, it's Annabella, the name my dad wanted to call me.
What's your favourite subject at school?
My favourite subject would have to be art, as you don't have to revise it or learn facts. It is a hard subject, yet I love doing it for it expresses my creative side.
What's your favourite drink?
I don't think I really have a favourite drink as I will drink basically anything. Diet coke is always my go to option, but I love hot chocolates, especially mint ones! They are AMAZING, but I also love Oreo milkshakes!
Favourite song at the moment?
It would have to be Work by Iggy Azalea. Can't stop playing it on replay!
"No money, no family, sixteen in the middle of Miami"
What would you name your children?
No clue, don't even know if I want children in the future!
Do you participate in any sports?
Paha no, I go to the gym, but I'm not really the sporty type.
Favourite book?
I don't really read, but I love Fallen too Far.
Favourite colour?
Pastel colours are so cute, but my favourite colour is probably blue.
Favourite animal?
I love dogs, I really want one but I rent my house so can't. But if I was possible I would want an panda they are just so cute!!
Favourite perfume?
Viva la juicy by Juicy Couture, I also love my Rihanna perfume.
Have you graduated high school?
Well I'm English so I go to secondary school and no I haven't I'm in my last year doing GCSE'S but next year I'm going to a sixth form college.
Have you ever been out of the country?
Yes too many times to remember!
Do you speak any other languages?
I can just about make conversation in German other than that I know a few words in French and Spanish. I can barely speak English properly yet alone another language.
Do you have any siblings?
Yes I'm the youngest of four, I have two older sisters and an older brother.
What's your favourite store?
That's a tricky one because I love different shops for different things, for makeup I love Mac and can't forget boots. Whilst for body care I love lush, and for clothes I'm obsessed with Topshop and Urban Outfitters.
Favourite restaurant?
Nanda ftw
Do you like school?
Not really as my school is private so the majority of people in it are stuck up there own arse.
Favourite YouTubers?
I'm literally obsessed with YouTube, so there are to many to name. I love Jack and Finn, Caspar Lee, JC Caylen, MacBarbie, Zoella and Beauty crush.
Favourite Movie?
A walk to remember!
Favourite TV show?
90210 all the way!
PC or Mac?
Mac, they look so much nicer and so easy to use. I have a Mac Pro myself and I love it.
What phone do you have?
iPhone 4S
How tall are you?
I'm around 5ft 10. I know I'm tall for a girl.
Think it's time I hit the sack now!
"The best things in life are the people you love, the places you've seen, and the memories you've made along the way."
Friends are everything in life, be grateful for what you have, not envy what you don't. What's the point of living life if you don't have those special people to share it with. Friendships are everything, yet don't morn one which has fallen. Friends come and go, thats the way of life. When times get hard you may have 10 there, or maybe only one. Express your feelings towards your friends don't bottle them up, because you never know tomorrow they could be gone.
Friendships may wither as I have experienced one action lead to a downfall or thoughts and feelings, resulting in a broken relationship. I lost my best friend today, but I wont morn what I lost but rather celebrate what I had. As tomorrow is a new day, a new beginning, ill make new friendships along my way in life. Some might stay for years others for days, but don't worry if you stumble along a negative friendship, just let go. You don't need the negativity in your life rather you need the positivity. Thats why its no good to string along a dying friendship, let go and begin a new line of friendships with new people.
Always capture the memories
Friends are people you share all those memories with, don't forget to capture those memories mentally but physically, so no matter what they are never forgotten.
Everyone at least one time in their will come across a bully, who will verbally or physically abuse people. People only abuse, for they have insecurities and feel the need to make others feel weak, for they believe it will help their self esteem. This doesn't always help, so they will continue this abuse until finally they feel satisfied. What they don't realise though is the affect their actions have on others. The words she said about others shouldn't be said for now they have left people in a bad way.
Even the smallest amount of words can ruin a persons day, and its not right that people should be allowed to feel this way. For as a teenage girl we go through many fazes of hating ourselves and appearances, having these thoughts yourself that you are ugly or fat are bad enough, without other people saying it to. I don't believe that anyone has the rights to tell people these comments and hurt them, for no one is perfect everyone has imperfections. For if you allow these negatives to build up, you can be left in a very bad place which in a number of cases can lead to self harm!
Tonight two of my best friends where treated like shit by this self obsessed girl in my year.,In one night the bully called one of my friends fat, which is the biggest lie ever as she has such a nice body and is an amazing tennis player. The other friend was called ugly yet she is one of the prettiest people I know, whilst the last friend was called a whore, which she is not at all. Comments like these hurt, they have the ability the attack your weak spot and that is exactly what a bully want they want to feel superior. What i've learnt tonight is to ignore those horrible comments for the bully will eventually give up and will learn from the mistakes.
Don't let them have the satisfaction of hurting you!
Bullying can happen to anyone at any age. Being bullied at school, home or online might involve someone pushing you, hitting you, teasing you, talking about you or calling you names. No one has the right to hurt you or make you feel bad. If you are being bullied you don't have to put up with it - you can talk to someone about it.
Friday, 4 January 2013
Hello guys,
Today I'm going to being a new change now I know I haven't posted in ages, Sorry about that. The reason why is one I have been busy celebrating Christmas with my family. Over the holiday I reflected quite a bit and realised that my blog post can reflect to others as being a bit to much like I feel sorry for myself. Now this is not true so I have decided to open my blog up to many different articles, from make up to fashion and to life in general, allowing me to think of many more blog posts. So this blog is now not about hardship in life but rather about everything in life. So I hope you enjoy my posts to come and would be great if you could hit the follow button. Love you all and stay tuned for some more blog post!
Everywhere you go there will always be somebody who hates them selves or their lives. Whether they hate their body, their home life, the way they look or the colour of their skin! There will always be people who have doubts or dislikes about themselves, but for some people these dislikes can take over their lives and in some cases lead to suicide!
I'm writing this today for as a normal teenager I do dislike my body for I'm not the perfect size 8, I'm not the prettiest and I do have a hard home life. I suspect most of you reading this think that you understand these feelings, but do you really? These feelings aren't normal ones and have lead me to feel depressed, have anxiety attacks and also self harm! Now before you start judging me, no I am not trying to obtain pitty point, I just want to make people aware of what others go through!
Here is a back story of my life, I have two sisters and a brother, me being the youngest of the clan. When I was four years old my life changed for the worse for my parents decided to separate. This impacted greatly on my sibling and I, for we where seen as the prize. My parents would not be able to stand to be in the same room as each other, birthdays and holidays were ruined by there pity arguments. Resulting in my dad moving to London and us only seeing him once a fortnight, which to a young girl is a long time. I guess I got used to it all as I am too young to remember the times before that, but as I see my friends with a happy family my heart still aches and wonders what life could have been like.
As years went by it all stayed the same, the arguments, the fighting and the screaming. This got even worse when my parents decided to actually divorce 5 years later. As you can image life began to get harder for me!
Except this year everything changed, I moved in with my dad leaving my mum. I fell out with my siblings, my dad and his girlfriend got extremely close and to top it all of I began my GCSE year. This was the year that really lead me to become depressed, I isolated myself form friends, my grades dropped dramatically and I went into a state where I was left with no feelings. I began to experience anxiety attacks which began to occur frequently and became worse. To the point where I would miss school.
You may wonder why this happened, it was due to moving in with my dad, don't get me wrong I love him, but it's tough be in a household where you see your parent for around a maximum of ten minutes a day, when you have to clean and tidy and where you have to cook. This is a rare occurrence in Cambridge, for as I go to a private school the majority of my friends have a stay at home mum, or a cleaner! Both which I don't, so it's hard for me seeing people who don't have to do anything at home and who treat things like shit for they knew someone will always clean up after them. It's ridiculous!
As I began to struggle not only at home by at school, my depression got worse and this lead me to begin to hate myself. I couldn't bare to look in the mirror for I saw myself as obese, I saw myself as ugly and a waste of human life! For arguments with people had lead them to call me ugly, the unwanted child, a mistake of nature, a failure, a bitch, a cunt, a retard, a creatin and the list goes on! So after hearing all these comments again an again I began to believe them, so I began to want to disappear for I believed no one would miss me! I began to start cutting so I could inflict pain on myself, but I also wanted to see if I was cable of feeling pain. This lead me to a state of numbness where I couldn't feel any emotion. I would fake happiness and fake laughter at school for I couldn't bare for people to ask me questions! As the cutting progressed I started to seriously harm myself.
Then one day whilst at my mums, she caught a glance of my arm and instantly knew something was wrong, I still thank my mum for seeing this for I genuinely believe that without her I wouldn't be here to day for the thoughts of suicide crossed my mind hundreds of times a day. I guess I knew that anyday I would end up taking my life into my hands, so I sunconscienely flashed my arm to my mother for I knew that would be the day I stopped !
After that day I began seeking help, I started taking to the nurses at my school, started seeing a therapist and even shared some hard stuff with my friends. Of course I didn't tell them everything so I guess if they read this they will now know all about the self harming, depression and anxiety! But I thank all my family and friend and the help I received for getting me to this place today, for now I have learnt to deal with my depression and anxiety in a healthy way.
So I urge all of you to cherish your family's and friends and to be thoughtful of those who do suffer from anxiety and depressions and those who do self harm. I hope you all benefit from this post for I'm sharing my story for the first time so you know what it can be like, and so if you do suffer you can learn to seek help from others. Or if you see someone struggling you can help and guide them to the right place!
So thought I would share one of the beat days this year which happened last week! So most of you will know about YouTube, well three youtubers who are really famous in England decided to do a tour on their bus! Over the course of a month they visited some of the main cities in the uk holding meet ups for all there fans. The three youtubers where Sam Pepper, Mazzi Mazz and Food for Louis.
So on Tuesday last week (the 4th) they came to cambridge my hometown and me and a couple of my friends decided to go.
The meet up was scheduled for 5 o'clock so as a good fan I went and brought a cheesecake, Sam Peppers favourite. So I waited in the freezing cold on Parkers piece a patch of grass in cambridge, and as famous people are they where fashionably late. Once they arrived they where greeted by around 200 screaming girls of cambridge, everyone pushing there way to the front to get picture with them. So after we waited two hours in a que to get our pictures with them It was finally my time so as I was approaching Mazz for a hug and old lady approached Sam, well I should really say lady. She started shouting at Sam for he called her an old lady and as you can guess this didn't go down very well with her, so I was left hugging mazz for around 5 minutes for we were both to scared of the old lady to let go! And yes I do admit I did enjoy it lots!!
After the meet up they held a party on their bus for 20 people so of course me and my friends bagged ourself a place on the bus! Along side me and my friends where a couple of youtubers from a college in cambridge and some other girls. So on the bus we played bus surfing where you all have to stand up and not fall over, left me with quite a few bruises. We then talked with Mazz and Sam, both genuinely really nice people. We stopped at a car park and has a dance off outside now due to me not being able to dance I watched at the sideline, needless to say it was very impressive and funny!
I thoroughly enjoyed that day and my love for Sam, Mazz and Louis has grown even more!
Oh and my face is painted as a tiger for we had a Christmas fair that day and my friends got bored so decided to make me a tiger!!
As I grow older I have realised life is made by the friends and family you have, and as young children we will fight and laugh with many different people. So as I mature I realised that only a handful of friends will always be there for you whilst the rest are rather fake friends, meaning popularity isn't everything.
Trust me you can be the most popular person in school yet not have someone to confined in. That is why it's seems better to have two true friends then around 10 fake friends.
Now I have come to a major crossroads in my life, it is choosing which sixth form to go to, for should I stay somewhere I am unhappy but be with my best friend or should I go somewhere better but risk losing my best friend. I know many of you are probably thinking if they where true best friends they would keep in contact no matter what, and that is my dilemma are we both really true best friends or fakes! So as the decision clock tick more and more I see myself slipping away form my best friend for we barely speak and now barely notice each other. For as I have been studying for some exams she has found friends with a girl who brings out all the negative impacts of my best friend, and not only is this impacting on me but on many of my classmates.
So should I tell her she has changed and suffer the risk of falling out or do I leave it be and act like nothing has happened and let them hurt others. I guess I have to stand up to her and hope everything turns out for the best but am I a horrible person for saying that this other girl brings out the negatives in her, for I would never want to hurt anyone but I think it's safe to say that no matter what happens I think I have will always have my best friend!!
So as i'm all cuddled up on the sofa drinking my hot coco and watching christmas films, i thought I would make a post about my favourite band. Bastille, they are an amazing group from south london who formed in 2010. The band consists of Dan Smith, Chris 'Woody' Wood, Will Farquarson and Kyle Simmons. Bastille debuted in June 2011 with their 7" single, Flaws/Icarus (released on Young & Lost Club). This was then followed by their Laura Palmer EP later in 2011. After adding a few more tracks online, the band received a lot of attention, helping secure some support slots. Their song Laura Palmer has to be my favourite by far for it hold so many meanings and is just such a beautiful and fun song.
'The night was all you had, You ran into the night from all you had, Found yourself a path upon the ground, You ran into the night; you can't be found'
There songs are just so different to others i think thats why i prefer them for they are blasted all over every radio and they aren't ruined all the time from dreadful covers. Its like there my secret pleasure that no body knows about i guess thats why it gives me such a thrill listening to them for I feel individual and different and not a sheep. Whilst i do listen to many mainstream songs< Bastille have to be named as my favourite artists for they have so much about them and each song is different they aren't just repeats of each other as many artists songs are. So if you only take one thing out of this make sure it is to listen to Bastille for I bet you if you ask your friends they wont know about them so check out there hit songs and join me at their tour in 2013.
Little rant over but keep checking back a my blog for more info on my Tee's and for more of my blog posts!!
Welcome to my blog, here is a little information about me. I'm fifteen years old and I live in cambridge, the famous university town! I am currently undertaking my gcses, and yes I will admit now I'm a bit of a maths geek! Sorry! I'm a bubbly creative person who is just obsessed by fashion, for you will always see me in Topshop or online on Urban Outfitters and Asos! I love fashion and I live everything to do it with it so I decided to kill two birds with one stone and set up not only this blog but my new Tee shop called Rouge Tee's, for I always love wearing tees whether they have a cute picture on them or a funny saying, they go well with everything so not only will I post about new fashion and beauty trends but also I will add information about my tee shop as I continue to expand it. If you want more information about me or my tee shop then just email me at RougeTees@hotmail.co.uk! Farewell Roguesters!!
